Phew got some organizing done!!! DAY 28
Aug 5, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqkxGugrBn4

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happy Saturday everybody I hope
everybody had an amazing day I did it
was very productive let's just say that
this morning when I woke up I I've just
been really trying my hardest to remind
myself that I have to get up and I have
to be moving I have to do something I
can't just sit and expect things to get
done around the house if it's things
that I want done and so I got up this
morning and I was like okay I'm gonna
get up I'm gonna clean up the kitchen
the kitchen really wasn't that bad but
it was you know enough for myself to be
like okay I think I'm going to I'm going
to do this so I got up and I cleaned up
the kitchen did the dishes unloaded the
dishwasher loaded the dishwasher clean
our cast-iron pans because that's all we
cook with we don't cook in like regular
pans we have a few like I guess you
would say like boiling pans but not any
type of like other kind of pan frying
pans and I feel like that we use always
use cast iron so honestly those are
probably the easiest things to clean you
would think they would be really hard
but if you treat them well and you do
everything that you're supposed to they
are such a breeze to cook with they're
our favorite so I cleaned all of our
cast-iron pans that we've been using and
I traded them and so that took a little
bit of time and then Ollie came out and
he had some plans that he was gonna go
and meet with a friend so I was like
okay you know I'll just stay home with
the kids and um and that was really nice
Ezra was really having like a really
just
a really down day like she is hurting so
bad with her molars and I feel so bad
because I'm just you know when she was a
baby we wouldn't even know that she even
popped a tooth until it was there like
she never ran like fevers um she mmmm
I can't even remember if she had I don't
even think she really had like a runny
nose or rashes or anything like that and
so it's just like awkward for me too you
know because both of my actually all
three of my kids going through teething
I will say they were really easy but
these last four mores are just really
they're giving us a time of our life so
she sat with me pretty much all morning
like very clingy I would try and get up
she would be crying I'm just like come
on I need to get things done um but I
also know that you know we just have
those days that we need to be held extra
and loved on and snuggled with and today
was just one of those days for her so I
just sat with her for them part of the
morning and then I gave her some tylenol
ibuprofen because she felt warm and then
she was like mommy my my my mouth is
hurting well then I thought oh no maybe
she's got a sore throat so of course you
know doctor mom I've got my flashlight
trying to you know check into the back
of her throat and making her open really
big and I'm jabbing my fingers back in
her like gum area and poor child she's
like gagging and I'm like oh my Mama's
trying for child and so I ended up
coming up with seeing that the molars
her back molars on the bottom are just
like the tips are just cut through and
the tops are really swollen so I felt so
bad because I know whenever I've had a
toothache oh my almost just like
paralyzes you and pain and
I don't understand why I guess because
it's so close to your mouth that not
only is it your mouth that hurts but it
gives you like those headaches and your
body just feels icky and all over feels
yucky and so um I definitely feel for
her because it's just like oh my gosh I
wish I could just do more for you and so
anyways so anyway so I went ahead and I
gave her her tylenol and ibuprofen and
she end up crashing at I want to say
like two and then Ollie came home at
2:30 and then I was like well let's just
let her sleep because I really she's not
feeling good I said she was crying her
head was hurting her and her you know
her mouth is hurting her so let's just
let her sleep so then once she woke up
at 4:00 then we went out for a little
Drive and just you know just just
changed up the atmosphere a little bit
just got out of the house and then she
was just not having it she was in the
backseat just crying I was gonna
videotape for you guys and show you a
little bit but I was just like you know
there was no point she just she was not
having the car today
so we went ahead and went to the store
really quick and grabbed her some ice
cream and boom because I was trying to
think of like something that she could
eat that would maybe like numb it a
little bit because she was gnawing on
ice earlier today but she had to stop
because it was hurting her so I'm like
okay obviously that's not gonna help so
I didn't even think that ice cubes like
a popsicle would even feel good because
everything that she was putting in her
mouth was just hurting her so I brought
her home and gave her some ice cream and
that seemed to kind of perk her up a
little bit and then we had spaghetti for
dinner and I will show you my bowl so I
have been craving spaghetti for like oh
my gosh I want to say probably two
months seriously and I know you guys are
all waiting for me to tell you how much
I lost but I'm gonna wait just a minute
so anyways I have been really craving
spaghetti
so I was like you know what today I I
did my way in and if I'm gonna have
something than dull gin like that like
something that's a little bit higher in
calories I'd prefer to do it on a day
that's my weigh-in day so that I have
the rest of the week to really tight
myself in and be able to really work
hard to make up for that dinner and so
Ollie made an amazing spaghetti I he's
never made it this way and it was so
good he um he grounded up chicken and
then he cooked that and then he added
zucchini olives I'm not sure if he added
onion I'm not sure I didn't taste it but
he's really good about blending himself
in and then some garlic and then some
sauce and so my whole dinner came to 700
calories which I know is like but mind
you I have 1800 calories that I am
allotted every single day which I never
receive my stuff I never never never
never never get to that I usually like
the highest amount of calories that I
can ever reach in a day's worth of time
is 1200 calories and that is like I
think I've only hit that like two or
three times normally it's like a
thousand calories is all I can get in so
I went ahead and I had only eaten all
day today I had my breakfast sandwich
and that was it because I had been so
busy taking care of this ride that I
didn't even have time to eat lunch so
tonight I was like well you know I this
is what I'm really craving and you know
I'm not about restricting like if I want
it I know I can have it it just means I
do need to work a little bit harder next
week to make sure that I don't have more
of those nights where it's like oh well
I want this and oh I want that you know
it's okay to have it once in a while and
treat yourself that's fine but for the
most part I don't restrict but I just
really stay on track with my calories
like making sure that everything is in
my calorie track which again today all
I've
had was 340 calories and then the 700
calories that's all I've had all day
today so literally technically I'm still
under I'm not even breached my 1200 and
that was having a good dinner tonight so
anyways so I had that and then not just
what ever ended up eating but my poor
baby kept choking on the noodles and I'm
just like oh my gosh because she didn't
want to chew on him so I cut him down
like like centimeter size like I mean
there was like barely anything and she
was able to eat that but every bite she
took she would gag on it and she was
choking on it I'm just like oh my gosh
so what I noticed her doing was she was
picking out the mushrooms and the
zucchini and she was eating that well
they're soft because they had been
cooked so she ate more of that and she
touched anything else I was just like
whatever makes you happy honey I I'm not
gonna argue with you because I know
you're not feeling good so we heard her
dinner and then I came home today after
our drive while all he was cooking
dinner and I was like okay I am going to
master these two shelves I'm gonna put a
picture in now of what I did so it's
after the job I forgot to take a B for
picture but here's the after aftermath
you
yes that's the after job before that you
could not see anything in those
cupboards like there was just empty
boxes upon empty boxes and garbage and
you know crackers that had been open and
left open and never touched and I don't
get in those covers very often so I
don't see a whole lot of what goes on in
there but the other day I went in there
for I don't even remember now but I went
in there for something I'm like oh my
goodness and so and I'm getting ready to
do our big monthly shopping on Mondays
so I was like you know what this is like
the perfect time let's go through the
cupboards throw everything out that's
just garbage I have a nice-sized box of
canned goods and stuff that we're never
gonna touch so I'm gonna find out where
I can donate that stuff because I don't
want to obviously just throw it away
like that's not okay we don't excuse me
we don't believe in just tossing food
that can obviously be used to somebody
else's advantage so I'm gonna go ahead
and I have that box put together and but
that took me that almost took me like
two and a half hours of standing there
taking Bowl Jeremih helped me take
everything out and then I went through
everything wiped all the cupboards down
and then restocked everything back up
and so now it's like you look at the
cupboard and you can see everything
that's in there what's in there it's
really nice like I'm just like okay now
now I'm feeling a little better here but
slowly and surely that's my hope is that
as I continue to be able to keep moving
is to get through every part of my house
and keep organizing everything because
that is the way that I like stuff to be
I am just that's just me so I took that
job upon myself and yeah it looks really
good but it took a long time to get it
done so my back has hurt me a little bit
tonight from just standing and lifting
and bending and doing all that but it's
alright it's okay
so now on to what today
so I waited today
yes 461 pounds so that is I lost 2
pounds this week I am very happy that I
lost 2 pounds but I am nervous because
that's not what I thought I was gonna
lose I thought I would at least lose
like 5 pounds again this week I mean I
have a lot to lose so 2 pounds to me was
just kind of a but I really I mean I did
move and I did walk and I did stuff but
I didn't do it consistently and I really
failed on my water drinking again this
week so this coming week we're amping up
the exercising which you guys will be
able to see because I'm gonna record it
this week starts my true work my true
working out which is gonna be my
electrical bike we're gonna do some
boxing and I'm gonna be doing my walking
so you guys are gonna get to see all of
that but I am amping up my exercise and
there's no excuses to my water intake
like it's gonna have to happen because
clearly I believe the reason I only lost
2 pounds because it's not anything that
I ate wrong in the sense of not judging
my food but nothing that would make me
hold on to any type of water or anything
like that I honestly think it has to do
with my drinking my water and
consistently consistently moving and
doing some sort of an exercise every
single day so that puts me at 29 pounds
in a month but I definitely want to see
more so I did fill in my pebbles for
last week and I did fill out my pebbles
for this week I completely forgot to
record that no I didn't I did record it
so I will put it in right here okay you
guys remember I told you I forgot to
fill in my pebbles
last week let's do that now five and
then this week we're gonna fill in two
so let me put those dates on there so
yes all my pebbles are caught up to date
and so now it's just like Olli was
saying well your body is probably kind
of getting used to the routine of your
eating kind of style so now we need to
bump it and do something different
because your body is just like kind of
sitting there like okay I will lose a
pound or two or maybe even three but
that's about what I'm gonna lose unless
I start moving my body and really get
going so that is what the goal is for
this week is to really get going and
moving and reminding myself every single
day of the journey that I'm on and what
journey you guys are on and what journey
we're on all together and this gots to
happen so yes I just wanted to make sure
that I covered that now on to one little
thing I do need to bring something up
that happened last night that carried
into today so
there was some comments made on my video
of my conversion to Islam by a certain
person this certain person had made some
very derogatory comments towards me and
my husband earlier in my my comments
like upper the first comment she made I
took it as a positive comment so I
didn't really like I because it could
have been it could have been either or
of a derogatory or a comment that maybe
like she didn't know how to word it so I
let it go couple comments down later she
was really being pretty nasty and then a
couple comments after that she was being
a little nasty at that time I chose
because I asked her to please stop she
chose to continue making comments so I
took it upon myself as the administrator
to this channel that we are all
promoting positivity and acceptance of
every religion every race every sexual
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no judgment I don't care if you are
white black yellow purple green I don't
care if you are lesbian gay straight
bisexual I don't care I love everybody
just the same
nobody is different in my eyes and
that's what we promote on this channel I
do not promote judgement at all and I
don't accept that at all we are all in
different places of our lives
in different walks of different journeys
but we all come together and we all
bring positivity encouragement support
love acceptance non John non non
judgmental to everybody so I chose to
take the stand and block this person
because I was not okay with the comments
that was being said at that time her
comments got erased
so I guess further down in conversation
she was having a conversation with other
members of this channel I did not know
that I didn't see it now mind you I get
messages all day long and I love every
message I get don't get me wrong but I
can have sometimes anywhere from 20 to
150 messages a day and we're just
talking youtube we're not talking I get
messages through Facebook through
Instagram through my email so I you know
and my my ultimate goal like I've said
from the very beginning is I'm going to
comment
back to everybody because that is Who I
am
I love commenting back I love talking to
every one of you so I did not know that
she was having conversation with
somebody else
so when conversations got you raised the
other person that this lady I blog was
having took it as I was trying to erase
her comments about leaving a slam I had
no idea that conversation was going on I
did not know she was sharing with
somebody else about leaving a slamming
and living a different lifestyle I had
known I had no idea and I guess even at
that time she apologized to me but
during that conversation with the other
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subscriber I had no intention whatsoever
to stop a conversation because she was
choosing to share why she left his fam
everybody has a choice in a path in
their life everybody has a choice to
become or not to become to leave or to
come in religions in marriages and
relationships in everything and again
it's not my job to judge but for what
the comments were above all of that I
did take I did I took events I did
because it not only could have affected
me but it could affected other people
that are really dealing with some major
issues and I don't want to see that
affect anybody so I chose to take a
stand and take that person off my
channel because this person was asked to
stop and this person could not stop so I
want to make it clear because the other
subscriber that was having the
conversation with the one I blocked felt
like because I was
picking on the one I blocked and threw
her out of the channel and was trying to
hide their conversation that's not true
I apologize to you and you know who you
are if you feel that I was trying to
play not blackmail but trying to play in
between lines that's not my personality
I will be just as honest as I can with
anybody and I told you at the very
beginning of you starting to get really
upset with me that I apologized to that
that I did that was not my intention to
take her off the channel if that was
only conversation she was having I would
have had no problem with that but where
my problem stood was what the comments
she was making prior to that and when I
asked her to stop and she couldn't stop
that's when I made the choice I made to
take her off so I just want to make this
clear not to bring up something that is
maybe already died down but I want
everybody to know I will never ever
block somebody for no reason I will
never push somebody out of my life for
no reason I will kick you off of the
channel if you were offending other
people when you've been asked to stop I
will push you away from the whole
situation if you can affect somebody in
a negative way and hurt people I will
stand up for that because that's called
bullying
and I don't promote bullying and I will
never allow that so I again I'm so sorry
that this situation happened the way it
did because I did not know that she had
apologized I did not know any of that
because I didn't know that conversation
was going on yesterday I was very busy
with my daughter being sick I had
multiple things I was trying to do I was
taking care of my kids and cleaning my
home and trying to message people and in
the midst of all of that this other
situation happened so I did not know
what was going on after that so when I
blocked this person I blocked I guess
all of her messages so I just want to
make sure that I clear that up that
everybody knows it was not my intention
to hurt anybody or hide anything because
I have nothing to hide I am an open hook
I will tell you guys anything you guys
need to know so I really hope that this
will clear things up in that if anybody
has any questions about that situation
please feel free to email me call me
well email me I guess and you can
message me through messenger and
Instagram and I think Twitter but please
let's stop the bullying let's stop the
negativity because this channels just
isn't about that
I want people when they come here
to find new friends and a new group that
they can be honest with and can just let
their hair down and be themselves and
not feel like they have to hide
something because they're afraid because
I don't have anything to hide
I would never hide anything and I would
hope that you guys feel comfortable
enough to share because many of you have
shared very intimate stories through
comments that everybody can read and I
just want everybody to be there for each
other and to love one another and learn
to accept everybody's lifestyles just
the way they are nobody should have to
change just to fit in with somebody
because if that's the case then that's
not a true friendship so anyways I
really didn't want to bring that up but
I felt the need to because it had been
something that was drawn out pretty deep
yesterday and this morning I thought
well I was gonna make a small video and
then I thought no you know what I'll
just address it when I do my video this
evening mmm that way I can kind of clear
up anything that goes on
I seriously have not been able to be on
YouTube much today because I've been so
busy so like I had said in last night's
video I will be responding to
everybody's messages but it's probably
gonna be later in the evening so that
way then I can kind of have that time
down and be able to focus outside of my
kids screaming and crying and throwing
their tantrums so anyways I will stop
rambling now and I will let you guys go
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until
then take care
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